I opened my eyes to see the light.
“Show me the light!
I want to see.”
I looked around
From sky to ground:
Some light, some dark,
Some shades of gray.
There is no guarantee.
“But I was promised light!”
I said.
“Why else these eyes?”
“Why else this sight?”
I heard a little voice instead,
“What light, you fool? And what promise?
Do you delude yourself a lot?”
Well, it’s true, I thought.
No one promised me anything after all.
But, wait…
What voice was that?
In silence I sat
waiting for the little voice to reappear.
It didn’t, in its lieu
Came rain and storm
came howling wind, back pain and insect bite.
Came sunrise, came falling leaves
And when I had just about had it
Came insight:
The light
I sought–
Outside–
is not.
And these outward eyes failed to see,
Until I turned my gaze inward
To find the source
Of illumination in me.
2014
Take a bow, Dev Samaddar! This is seriously good poetry. For some reason, I particularly love the line about “howling wind, back pain and insect bite”!
Your website’s software (WordPress? JetPack? your theme?) identifies this poem as “related” to your 2013 work, “Resolute Siddhartha”. I’ve seen a lot of algorithms fail, but this time this one was spot on: These are thoughtful companion pieces. Many thanks!
Thank you so much, Gary. That’s a most wonderful comment. I was unsure about hitting publish on this poem. Thought it was too idiosyncratic but then decided, what the heck, it’s my website that I pay for after all 😄
I wonder why that particular line appealed to you. Also, I agree the pairing of the “related” post is definitely on point. It’s probably Jetpack doing that work in the background.
I guess it appealed to me because the “little voice” turned out to be the howling wind accompanied by pain and discomfort. That’s very true to life.